Sunday, April 20, 2014

Out of Balance

Who would have thought that beginning yoga teacher training would throw me completely out of balance? If I am adding more yoga in to my life, shouldn't the stress just fall off, my hamstrings just loosen up, and my life become this center of happiness and bliss. Well... that hasn't been my experience.

My teacher training began in the middle of February (right about the same time as my last post...), I was so excited. I was ready to learn some yoga stuff and be able to do all of this cool upside down, twisty stuff. Well... I found myself exhausted, frustrated, and overwhelmed.

This is one of those upside down things...that I can't do. day!

Exhausted... I went from an ideal workout week of 3-4 runs, 3-4 yoga classes, and 2 strength sessions. Yes, this is a lot, but, I had a little balance and structure that worked for me....and I said this was an ideal week...  But, once I entered my teacher training, I started to approach my yoga classes with a different frame of mind. And, I realized that I was doing everything with about 70% effort. I could be a much better runner and yogi if I slowed down and really focused on one thing at a time. So... I have dramatically cut back on my running. Yes, it is hard and I am not loving the fact that I am not running as much. But, I have seen huge changes in my yoga practice over the past few weeks which really make it worth it.

Frustrated... I still can't do a forearm balance, chin stand, drop back... I don't know what my expectations were... but I really thought I was going to come out of teacher training being able to do all of this cool bending, upside down stuff. But, when I sat down and thought about it. I don't know why I thought I would be able to learn in 12 weeks what people spend a lifetime working towards. So, I have accepted where I am and know that being able to do a "cool" pose doesn't make me any more or less of a yogi. Being a yogi is accepting where you are today and loving yourself for that.

Overwhelmed: Adding 20 hours of stuff to a week is a lot. Thursday night, Saturday, and Sunday are suddenly filled with physical practice and learning (something you get rusty at...). The bed went unmade a little more than usual, the laundry got done less frequently, and the floors weren't always vacuumed... it was a lesson in prioritizing. I feel like I have just now found my balance and training is almost over. haha. I suppose that is how it works sometimes.

So, to sum up this random stream of thoughts that have had me running in circles for the past 10 weeks...

- It is OK to reevaluate your priorities when you are working towards a goal.
- Yoga is a practice that you spend your whole life working towards. There isn't one pose that makes you a yogi.
- The crockpot is my best friend.

1 comment:

  1. AND....remember no one gets old and says "I wish I had cleaned more" Don't worry about the bed, and the vacuuming, etc. It will happen when it happens and in the mean time, keep on learning and also enjoy yourself. You are doing great.


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