My teacher training began in the middle of February (right about the same time as my last post...), I was so excited. I was ready to learn some yoga stuff and be able to do all of this cool upside down, twisty stuff. Well... I found myself exhausted, frustrated, and overwhelmed.
|This is one of those upside down things...that I can't do. But...one day!|
Exhausted... I went from an ideal workout week of 3-4 runs, 3-4 yoga classes, and 2 strength sessions. Yes, this is a lot, but, I had a little balance and structure that worked for me....and I said this was an ideal week... But, once I entered my teacher training, I started to approach my yoga classes with a different frame of mind. And, I realized that I was doing everything with about 70% effort. I could be a much better runner and yogi if I slowed down and really focused on one thing at a time. So... I have dramatically cut back on my running. Yes, it is hard and I am not loving the fact that I am not running as much. But, I have seen huge changes in my yoga practice over the past few weeks which really make it worth it.
Frustrated... I still can't do a forearm balance, chin stand, drop back... I don't know what my expectations were... but I really thought I was going to come out of teacher training being able to do all of this cool bending, upside down stuff. But, when I sat down and thought about it. I don't know why I thought I would be able to learn in 12 weeks what people spend a lifetime working towards. So, I have accepted where I am and know that being able to do a "cool" pose doesn't make me any more or less of a yogi. Being a yogi is accepting where you are today and loving yourself for that.
Overwhelmed: Adding 20 hours of stuff to a week is a lot. Thursday night, Saturday, and Sunday are suddenly filled with physical practice and learning (something you get rusty at...). The bed went unmade a little more than usual, the laundry got done less frequently, and the floors weren't always vacuumed... it was a lesson in prioritizing. I feel like I have just now found my balance and training is almost over. haha. I suppose that is how it works sometimes.
So, to sum up this random stream of thoughts that have had me running in circles for the past 10 weeks...
- It is OK to reevaluate your priorities when you are working towards a goal.
- Yoga is a practice that you spend your whole life working towards. There isn't one pose that makes you a yogi.
- The crockpot is my best friend.